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When My Compulsive Behavior Is A Threat To My Principles
A few days back, I realized that sometimes I react to certain posts on Facebook just to make the number of reactions on that post a round figure.
Now, that’s new. I decided to talk to my therapist.
“Did you like anything that’s against your principles?” She asked.
“Not yet. Mostly, I have reacted on harmless posts,” I replied.
“You should try not to indulge this particular behavior,” she said. “It’s still new. You should get it under control right way, when it’s still not so compulsive.”
“I know… What if I end up liking one of those Jay Shri Ram posts?”
“Yes, that’s a good way to derive your motivation. What if you end up going against your principles? At this point, this might seem unlikely to you but these things get worse with passing time…”
I knew she was right. It’s one of my biggest fears. What if I succumb to this particular aspect of my OCD and end up liking shitty posts from shitty people?
“You are right. I will definitely find a way so that I don’t have to compromise with my principles,” I agreed.
We hung up the call.
This morning, she pinged me. “How are you doing? Are you able to control it?”
“Oh yes! Found the most effective way… I deleted around 500 people from my friend list…”
Some day, she is going to give me electric shocks…